[one] Ecology presentation this afternoon. Feeling entirely unprepared, especially since I have only written out my script yesterday afternoon, and re-written about half of it at 2am last night. My team mates have actually worked on memorizing their own scripts, and while I am not one who believes in memorizing presentations word for word... I can't just wing it.
[two] Need to find the passion for the dance which I do in the university again. I am taking dance lessons with the school on weekdays and outside during the weekends. However, the crazy pressures I face as an undergraduate is making me dread the days which I have to leave my dorm room and head to the dance studio on weekdays. The main reason I guess is because it has become a responsibility, more than going out of a true want to dance. Sitting on the executive committee of the dance club, I am under compulsion to attend classes twice a week. I don't know what I'm doing in the club anymore, and I want to find that passion to go for lessons again.
[three] A tweet just appeared on my Twitter newsfeed, announcing that we are down to the last three weeks of the school term. This honestly scared me, because it's less than a month to the end of the semester, and final examinations are nearing. I actually have a pretty major test tomorrow which I am completely unprepared for because I have been so out of it last week, and been busy preparing for the upcoming presentation during my little free time over the weekends.
[four] One thing I really enjoy though, is my commitments to the service club I am involved in. So blessed to be in a position to influence and make a difference to other people's lives. Also am incredibly incredibly thankful for all the people that I have met through the club. People so full of passion.
[five] Despite all my qualms about life as an undergraduate, what I dread the most and what scares me most is probably the prospect of not
being an undergraduate. Because we go back to the juncture of having to make another life-changing decision, probably the most important one of all. But I guess in life we will continually make decisions that are increasingly significant. Within the next decade of my life, I will probably have to decide on my lifetime career (because I do not see myself as the job-hopping kind, and my field of interests/specialization is pretty specific) and who to spend the rest of my life with.
This reminds me of something which the pastor often mentions. He describes the decision of accepting Christ as the "most important decision of your life", more important than choosing who to marry. So, at least I can take assurance in the fact that whatever decisions I have to make from here on, the decision I made when I was thirteen-years-old will surpass it.
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble.
But take heart! I have overcome the world." -John 16:33